I am starting to get very irritated with my father. Now, I never was on great terms with him and I know I've been trying to warm up to him, but that doesn't mean I have the need of him in my life. All I have wanted is to stop hating him for selfish reasons. That's it. I don't want him to show up at our door and hang out for the weekend. It is bothersome, he abruptly decides plans and somehow guilts us into having him stay over and visit even though we have nothing to do with HIM. Where I live, there isn't any thing you actually can DO, it's just really hanging out with your pals and making the best of time at a park nearby.
I can't just "hang" out with my father, I never really like to strike up conversation because one way or the other it will end up in an argument shortly. Or, he starts to go on a lecture of something pointless and repeats himself over and over. It can get on anyone's nerves really fast. It's not like I hate all of his visits, but when it's only a week apart, and the person who's coming over isn't someone you like to enjoy being around with it just isn't a dandy time for you!
Also, when he does have things for us to do....they are not interesting for me. In the winter we went to a Lynx game and I was poker face practically the whole time AND I HAVE WRITTEN A JOURNAL ABOUT THAT HORRIBLE ADVENTURE.
SO, what he has plans this time is a professional wrestling/boxing...I don't know, something with fighting and buff guys. Do you know how NOT appealing that is for a person who hates to see buff guys with steroid muscles? Appalling. Then he tries to say, "There might be a skinny guy in the crowd...." =_= Really? A toothpick guy that has interests similar to mine at a fighting rink? I'm afraid if you see a guy around in a group like that, he's probably gay or taken.
That's just one of his faults in being around all the time now. .__. He wants us to visit my Auntie who has two kids that I haven't met since she had her first boy. It sounds REALLY awkward to go visit there, and I just won't feel comfortable. That is it, I never feel
comfortable when I'm around my dad. I feel vulnerable and he always likes to touch my sisters and I. Not molestation wise-but pretty close to it and we don't look like his daughters. We look like his girlfriend/s when we're with him in public, so human contact with him is not on my daily planner that is imaginary.
AND ANOTHER THING, I have tried to make plans with my friends but they have JOBS NOW.
Their work schedules are now against me when I'm free. And unwelcome family members. And just those days when I just want to be alone.
Friend contact is terribly missed. ;A;
Other than my Dad interrupting my life that doesn't need him and my friends not being able to hang out, my social life is me somehow too busy to not go on here. .__. I just read manga and get distracted, because man am I REALLY behind on my reading in general.
I also have projects that I want to start.
Start CNF- which is creative non-fiction, and it is the genre in which "Shit My Dad Says" or "Marly and Me" would be in, that's the best I can help you clueless folks.
One CNF would be called "Why I Hate Transportation" and I can explain why I hate buses-school and travel kind-, cars, biking, walking, being in a helicopter (I was really little, and it was missing a door on it), and things like that. I think I'm honestly cursed into being killed by one of these.
The other CNF will be called "Why I Hate Holidays" ....Halloween is the only sole survivor.